My very first night in the MTC, another sister in my dorm read this
poem to everyone before we went to bed. I think it's a perfect
description of the feelings everyone experience on a mission.
A mission is a strange experience
It's a trial and a test
A mission throws you at the worst
Yet teaches you the best
I've never been so happy
I've never been so depressed
I've never felt so forsaken
I've never felt so blessed
I've never felt so confused
Things have never been so clear
I've never felt my Heavenly Father so distant
He's never been so near
I've never felt so discouraged
I've never been so full of hope
I feel like I could go on forever
I think I've come to the end of my rope
I've never had it quite so easy
I've never had it quite so tough
Things have never been so smooth
Things have never been so rough
I've never traveled through so many valleys
I've never ascended so many peaks
I've never met so many nice people
I've never met so many freak!
I've never had so many ups
Ives never had so many downs
I've never worn so many smiles
I've never worn so many frowns
I've never been so lonely
I've never had so many friends
Boy, I hope this is over soon
Gosh, I hope it never ends
During
that first night in the MTC, serving a mission was VERY different than
what I thought it was going to be. And wow I can never ever convey the
things I've experienced this last 18 months.
All
the days I puked on myself while riding my bike, all the times I
stomached the most ridiculous food, all the lovely Japanese people I
hugged, all the friend I've made, all the days I slaved through
exhaustion, all the times I biked up mountains in the blazing hot sun,
all the nights crying because I could speak this language, all the
amazing spiritual experiences of hearing people pray to Heavenly Father
for the first time, all the times I felt overwhelming love while
searching for answers in the scriptures, all heart ache of watching
people reject the Savior, all the most joyful moments of seeing my
brothers and sisters step into the waters of baptism.
These
are best most precious and amazing moments of my life. I would serve a
mission a million more times because of the ways I've been humbled, and
because I love my Savior and I so happy to have grown so close to Him.
Serving
a mission has been the most difficult think I've ever done. But it's
the most incredible and rewarding experience of my life.
I
thank Heavenly Father everyday, for allowing me to move into my sisters
house at 16 and listen to missionaries. For the opportunity to come
unto Christ and be baptized. For the privilege to preach his Gospel to
his children in Japan.
I
know God loves us. Just because we are his Children, we don't have to
do anything to earn his love. He loves us because we are His. I know
Christ knows our weaknesses, he suffered for them. He knows the desires
of our hearts, and by just expressing a desire to come unto Him, he will
help us reach our potential. I know Joseph Smith was a humble servant
of God. He lived and died to bring to truth to the world. The Book of
Mormon will answer questions of a spiritually hungry soul, it will
comfort in times of difficulty.
I
know that Gods love is real and powerful. Christ's Atonement has
changed me in a way I could never do myself. I love Him. And I hope to
be a valiant servant of His at the last day.
Thank you everyone for your support and love! I love you!!!
Also,
my family moved so I don't know if or where I will have homecoming. But
if I do, I will get in touch with everyone somehow! Also, I'm sorry of
I'm weird or awkward! Please help me!
I love you all!! Stay genki!
ジョソンソ姉妹